Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Sterotyping and Skoal
I know this is probably going to sound a little nutty... but I WANT TO BE A BOY! Now I know that the statement I am about to make is TOTALLY stereotyping and really does not pertain to every male and I actually know females who can do this too. But the thing is... I want...
TO BE ABLE TO COMPARTMENTALIZE!!!
I want to be able to just live my life right now... OK! I want to be able to have a hard thing happen and deal with it in that moment OR move on to the next topic or thing and not think about the hard thing that just happened.
BUT I CAN'T. Every thing is all mixed up together in one big box. It all affects each other. If I need to have a hard conversation with someone, I don't do very well at walking about happy until I am able to have the conversation. If I am not being obedient to the Lord, I can not shake into "OK" mode until I am obedient. If I just cried for 20 minutes, hard for me to move on over to the happy train and keep going. ACK!
There are a lot of voices going off in my head right now telling me truth about this... and they are all pretty clear. But for now... I'm gonna try to compartmentalize and...
Go swing a bat or get some Skoal!