This week at our staff meeting we talked about how our world is changing. That it will probably get tougher and tougher in the US to be an outspoken believer and not be persecuted.
It left me with the question... what would I do?
If faced with the decision to say "YES I BELIEVE IN JESUS CHRIST" or deny Him to save my own skin, what would I do?
I have to admit I have really struggled with this question over the last couple of days. Being honest with myself (and y'all)... I have insecurities, at times my flesh seems bigger than my faith. I hate it, I don't want that to be the case, I want to be able to say, absolutely, no question, I would say I believe and take the consequences knowing that God is with me.
But... What would I do?
Then a friend reminded me that no matter my response, Jesus loves me, remember Peter? Honestly, I felt a huge sense of relief to remember Peter. He was so sure that he would never deny Jesus, he would be the last one standing. But he did! (Matthew 26:31-35, 69-75) And Jesus loved Him all the same. And God continued to use Peter to spread His truth.
Then I think about Paul. (Acts 20:24, Romans 1:16, and Philippians 3:7-9) These verses are just a few examples of how Paul considered his life nothing compared to following Jesus and making Him known.
And lastly I remember the sick boy's father in Mark 9:24 when he says to Jesus, "I believe, cure my unbelief!"
So I have decided to change my question from: What would I do? To... What am I going to do?
I am going to continue to pray, to read His word, to surrender my life to Jesus, to be obedient to what He calls me to, to give Him room to continue to change my heart, ask Him to change my unbelief to belief and trust Him with what is coming.
I'm going to be thankful, that whether I respond like Peter or Paul... I know that God's grace is more than sufficient.
And it really is so great because He already knows... What I would do!